I’ve never been one for long distance relationships, especially of the Internet variety. Now I find myself actually considering the idea. It’s actually kinda funny. Just when I had given up on looking for a guy, I found a great one. Unfortunately, he lives in Florida, and I live in Tennessee. Technically, we’re only friends. But his friendship has become very important to me. We send emails back and forth every day, and we never run out of things to say. We talk about music and movies, family and friends, past relationships, crazy things we’ve done. We even talk about the skeletons in our closets. This guy knows more about me than some of my closest friends here in Knoxville - the people that I’ve known for YEARS! It’s really nice to feel that kind of connection with someone. Like I can say whatever is on my mind without fear that he’ll think I’m crazy. Like he already knows what I’m going to say before I say it.
I’ve guarded my heart for so long. After a failed marriage that left me very distrustful of guys, I thought I’d never open up to anyone again. I finally did open up to a guy (G) a couple of years ago. He took my heart, stomped it, ran over it with a Mack truck, chewed it up, and gave it back to me in bite-size pieces. My friends tell me that ever since then, I haven’t given anyone a chance to know the real me. I guess that’s true. Why open your heart to someone when it will only get broken in the end? And just how much heartache can one person take? Now I find myself breaking all my rules. Opening myself up to someone when I could potentially be hurt. And opening up to someone who lives so many miles away! What am I thinking?
All I can say is that it all feels right. I’ve had a permanent smile on my face since we started talking. I feel like a teenager again. I’ve got real hope for the first time in a very long time. And if all we ever are is friends, I’ll still cherish every moment I spent getting to know this remarkable guy.
September 21st, 2005 at 9:27 am
I’m jealous.
But I’m married, so…carry on.
September 21st, 2005 at 11:29 am
Sounds promising. I hope it works out for you
September 21st, 2005 at 1:45 pm
Well, at least cherish the good times, even if things turn sour later…
For what its worth, my wife an I spent 6 years 3000 miles apart before getting married. The internet was pretty crappy then, so emails were snail mail letters mostly, and we used the phone A LOT!
Oh, the bills we ran up!
Good luck!
September 21st, 2005 at 2:28 pm
go with your gut…and fly…
peace…
September 21st, 2005 at 2:36 pm
I would, though, make sure he’s not a University of Florida fan. And if he is, dump him quick because…you know, they’re scary…
September 22nd, 2005 at 8:41 pm
I agree with Monkey..go with your gut. You know what feels right.
I will say that while it was not long distance, my husband and I did meet via the internet,so it can work. The internet sometimes has a way of forcing you to get to know a person really well before you ever meet them. Of course, it is also very easy to lie there, but I think if you spend enough time talking to a person, you know if they are genuine or not after a while.
Good luck and best wishes!