The Kat House

The one problem that has cropped up again and again in my past is my “commitment” to relationships. I’m talking about time spent with my partner and the amount of trust that I put in him. Perhaps I should say “lack” of both these things. Oh, and then there’s the coldheartedness. I’m a very independent woman, and as such, I don’t deem it necessary to spend all or the majority of my time entertaining a man. I’m perfectly fine seeing a guy once or twice a week, and in certain relationships, once or twice a month was all I could handle. It’s not that I don’t want a relationship. That’s not the case at all. But I thoroughly enjoy my freedom and alone time. It has been 6 years since my divorce, and eventually, I would like to get married again - but I can’t quite seem to spend enough time with a guy to ever get to that point. Consider a few important moments from my past.

“Tish, I’m giving you an ultimatum. Either spend more time with me or dump me.” ~ D, 2000

“C’mon over. I don’t know if I remember what you look like.” ~ G, 2003

“You’ve got ice chips in your panties.” ~ J, 2004

“You’re like a lone dog. Anyone who gets too close to you is bound to get bitten.” ~ M, 2005

“I get more attention from a rock.” ~ F, 2005

The list goes on and on. Why can’t I find a guy who accepts me “as is” and is happy with the time that we have together? Eventually, I’ll work my way up to spending more and more time with my partner. Getting through the first few months, however, is quite a task. Are you up for the challenge?