Torturing Myself Once Again

Why do I torture myself by thinking of the past? I’m sure you all know about my history with G. Well, I have been back in touch with him for the past couple of weeks, and a part of me has wondered if maybe things could turn out differently this time. I haven’t seen him, but we’ve been exchanging emails almost daily. So when in doubt, ask, right? Wrong! I made the mistake of asking G if there was any part of him that wanted me back. Here’s the answer I got.

“I still care about you and I don’t want you to be hurt in any way. And I don’t want you to ever hate me or dislike me. But you asked… so… Never is something that shouldn’t ever be said about the future. But you shouldn’t think of us as potentially getting back together anytime in the near future. Frankly, the way I see it, there’s just too much water that has passed under the bridge. I think there are issues we both have and the slightest word between us could be a match that burns the whole forest down. I would only be doing you a disservice if I held you back from moving on with your life.”

So that’s that, folks. Stupid Tish just had to ask! And now I have a question for you guys. Is there something so horribly wrong with me that I should be living the rest of my life in solitude? And if there is, will someone please be kind enough to share the problem with me? I’ve always thought of myself as quite the catch – kind, generous, caring, independent, ambitious, loyal, and decent looking – but apparently all mankind has a very different opinion

3 Responses

  1. eric Says:

    I had to see a post this old. hello again, SPEEDCAT H

  2. blackatticus Says:

    you know what..thatz the same reason i’m here. i gotta dig through the cat house files.

  3. blackatticus Says:

    I’d dare to answer the question here, but it was like…’04 and i’ve got all of 2005 & 06 to read to see if you’ve already answered this question.

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